Do you remember the last time you felt sexy? I don’t. Certainly I remember feeling like that in my 20s and 30s. Knowing I was being watched and pretending not to notice.
Who’s looking at me now? My husband doesn’t look at me any more, but maybe I don’t try to look sexy any more? How sexy can I look 20 pounds overweight, wearing elastic waisted jeans and a baggy shirt? I can even wear my husband’s shirts and not turn him on any more. Maybe I don’t wear them right? Maybe I don’t wear the right size? I’ve been wearing clothes a long time and hadn’t notice anything, until I woke up 50. That’s when things changed.
I don’t know how to live with this unopened can of worms. I feel like a 20 something in need of a gay boy friend to take her shopping and to make fun of other people in the mall. I hate it when I feel like a 20 something wanting to go shopping.