I’ve exhausted my state disability, it runs out the end of next month. Of course, I already know that the feds have denied me. I’ve spoken to a DI attorney and she felt from talking to me that as long as I felt I could do some sort of work, I can work. According to DI I am capable of doing my usual work, and lately I’ve been feeling maybe I can. Today I applied for some executive assistant positions and sent my resume to an employment agency. Maybe I should trust my government is correct in their assessment of me.
I’ve been feeling a little more clear headed lately, though I still have some serious moments. I plan to get used to the moments of blankness and trying to work with them instead of against them. How do I make use of feeling blank? I have no idea. But I’m going to hang on to this feeling that maybe I can hold a similar job to my last one. I’m going to have to work on my typing, though, my speed has dropped due to the stiffness I get in my hands. Only thing I can do is work through it.
Maybe the new medication is working and my mood is finally improving, I find myself somewhat looking forward to going back to work. Today was the first day I really started looking for a different type of position, including applying for a couple personal assistant positions. Not what I ever wanted to do, but I’m thinking of doing something a bit different, so working with creative Hollywood types. The thing is, they expect you to be at their beck and call 24 hours a day, and I’m pretty used to the 9-5 job, but they pay really well. I like being able to go home at 5PM, but maybe it’s time I tried something else. Maybe in doing something a little bit different, I will be able to compensate for the very real problems I have and minimize the potential for damage.
I will miss blogging every day, though I hope to continue once I do go back to work. I will miss the friends I’ve made, but will try to find a way to stay in touch with them.