In the mail today I received a response from social security. They dismissed my appeal, because it was late. I went down to social security myself, in person, to bring them my appeal. The lady had me fill out a form and write why my appeal was late. I noted that though it was dated November, I never received it until January. Is that clear? Could that have been misunderstood? No. No one read my letter, no one looked any farther than the dates. Now I have to appeal their dismissal, explain again why the appeal was late, only for them to tell me my hearing will be next year sometime. My tax dollars at work.
Then, not 10 minutes from getting the mail, I get a call from one of the employment agencies. They have a possible gig for me. I did a Skype interview. Not 15 minutes later Alex from the agency calls me back. The client wants me to start Monday! Yay! Job offer!! One catch, it’s only a six month temp job. But it would give me an idea of what I can and can’t do any more. I think I could handle anything for six months.
Second catch: it starts Monday! That’s only two days away!
Ah, but what happens to my disability claim? If I can work, that means I’m not disabled. But it I don’t handle the job well, or even get fired, will that work for me if I pursue disability? Of will working even for a day. I wish the system worked with you instead of against you. I’m pretty sure I’m not totally disabled, but I don’t know what I can do until I do it and handle it without issue.
True, if I can do this job, then I can do it other places and the disability claim is obviously moot. If I fail this time, it should work in my favor, because it shows I’m willing to try to go back to work.
Do I need to contact my neurologist and tell her I’m going back to work. If I need to I will ask her to release me from disability, writing a letter indicating the type of tasks I am still able to do?
Damn, I wish I never retired. My life’s been going downhill ever since. I feel so guilty and I feel stupid and think the stress just got to be too much. That I’m ok now. I can go back to my regular type work, just with less stress, less stressful drive. But I worry, When will it build up again? Will it happen again?