Happy Friday all.
It’s been a long hot week and I can’t remember the last time I was so ready for the summer to end. It’s been near 100 degrees most of the week, even with the a/c on, I’m uncomfortable. In fact, I haven’t been this uncomfortable since I left Arizona! I don’t want to go out until the sun goes down, but I’ve got errands to run that have to be done before then.
I have felt under the weather all week, I don’t know if it’s the heat or something else, but my appetite is poor and my stomach is upset. Not sure if I should eat or not, I don’t feel any better or worse if I do. Maybe it’s the gastroparesis coming back. I had that a few years ago and got down to 105 lbs. Even for my height (5’2″) that’s getting pretty thin. I guess if it keeps up I’ll have to go to the gastroenterologist again. Maybe I’ll wait until I lose 20 lbs first though. (LOL) I’m sleeping pretty good, even napping every day. Not that napping is necessarily a good thing, but lately a necessity and I’m getting solid 2 hours naps this week. Maybe it’s the heat, maybe it’s because I’m not eating well.
All in all things have been pretty good lately. Husband and I are getting along, Son has been clean and sober, there have been no major arguments. Husband and I have been looking at property in Oregon/Washington. Not that we will buy if we move, but just to dream. Last night we were looking at house boats, or floating houses. They are so cool. And actually cheaper than buying a regular house, I guess because you’re not buying any land? There are even some with 4 bedrooms and two baths, with beautifully re-done kitchens, and wooden floors. I could definitely live on a house boat.
I’ve been reading “Buddhist Bootcamp” and it speaks to me. The chapters are short and contains some terrific quotes. The author is a monk with a keen way to simplify things and it’s working for me. I’ve actually started to meditate (well I try), and have had the briefest of glimpses into a peaceful mind. Then the other day I discovered there is a Buddhist Center here in town. I planned to check it out today after my Tai Chi class, but forgot. I will definitely make it there soon, though, maybe next week after things cool off.
Speaking of which, my classes are going well. Zumba is one hell of a work out, and I’m bummed that I missed a class already, and will miss next week as well. I’m barely getting the steps down and we’re half way through. I guess I will be able to take the class again. I tried to find online tutorials, which are actually abundant, but I guess each instructor has their own steps and music, and I haven’t found anything like my class. I was hoping to see a change in my weight, but maybe by the end of the 8 weeks I’ll drop a few pounds. I’m getting the hang of Tai Chi as well. It’s nice to know I can memorize a few of the moves.
Part of the Buddhist Bootcamp talks about denying yourself. Denying myself chocolate is probably one of my toughest tasks. Well, chocolate, and ice cream, and brownies. Preferably together, is my absolute favorite treat and my biggest challenge to deny myself. Especially if I have a bad day and feel I need to reward myself. Of course, what kind of reward is it if it is bad for me, right? That’s the way I have to start looking at it. Not as a reward, but as a punishment. That ought to keep me away from brownies! Last night I was pretty pleased with myself by not grabbing a chocolate bar. I may have to get ice cream some time this weekend though. No. I will not, a nice icy cold piece of fruit would be so much more satisfying (I think if I say that I’ll believe it).
ice cream brownies drenched in
hot fudge and whipped cream