Maybe I’m just overwhelmed by our upcoming move, but I have almost no concentration. I am managing to read a few blogs, but not as many as usual. I’m discombobulated. I’m not catching up with my fellow bloggers well. And when I do read a blog, I have found that I have nothing to say. No comment. Even on some of the most controversial blogs I read, like Myatheistlife, Shaunynews, and The Pink Agendist. Maybe I don’t feel the need to put in my two cents worth any more. I still care about things, but it seems I no longer have an opinionated comment. Maybe that’s not a bad thing.
I think it’s part of my inability to read a book. I don’t think I’ve finished reading a book in more than a year. It’s part of why I am having so much trouble writing. If you don’t read, writing is very hard, I’ve found. Back when I could read two books at a time, and finish a 7-book series in 4 weeks, I was writing like a demon. Publishing short stories, searching for new markets, researching novels which sit unfinished in a box in the closet. What happened?
And I haven’t smoked in months, so you’d think my mind would be pretty clear. It seems like I just have more and more blank space in my head. Maybe I shouldn’t fight it. Just sit back and make my jewelry (which is a pretty empty-headed task) til I run out of material. Trust that my concentration may return, and be content if it does not.