Having a little trouble with maintaining a calm Buddhist demeanor. I just came home from shopping and no one was there to help me carry things in. Turns out GS was at a friends, Son was walking the dogs and Husband was napping. He was angry that I dropped something that woke him up.
I’m having a hard time being sympathetic, as Husband sees no problem waking me at any time or day or night, and never apologizes. Does it deliberately apparently. Doesn’t care that he’s woken me. Not even if I say something.
But he’s mad because my bringing in the groceries woke him up.
I should feel sympathetic. We were woke up early this morning by a panicked Mom who was in the ER. They had told her she may need another open heart surgery. So Husband and Son ran down to see her at the hospital. Turns out they weren’t doing surgery today. Tomorrow they will do an angiogram and hopefully be able to help her out with a stent.
Anyway, when they came home today he was pretty worn out and immediately took a nap. After about 2 hours I printed something. The printer is in the bedroom. It’s very quiet, but apparently even that noise woke him up, so he was already pissy when I left to do the shopping. I didn’t know he was napping, and was a little pissed no one was around to carry in groceries.
Then I stopped myself and said, what difference does it make? I am capable of carrying them from the car to the kitchen, and putting the groceries away. No reason for assistance. So why’d it bug me? Because I always make sure I am ready and available to help with the groceries when Husband goes.
I am having trouble letting this go.