I have not been inclined to blog lately and it makes me feel guilty. I haven’t checked in with my favorite blogs in days. There’s so many people to catch up with, but some of them are also taking a hiatus, and one of my favorite blogs seems to have disappeared altogether, or at least become inaccessible. And to top it off, WordPress has snuck in a bunch of changes.
I feel, as have many before me, that I may be done blogging, at least for now. But the relationships I’ve made have been very important to me. So many people here helped me make changes these last 2 years or so. Why stop blogging? Honestly, I’m not sure. It just seems I don’t need to anymore. The connections I’ve made here were so vital to me for so long, now seem more tentative and distant.
I feel as if I’m closing a chapter in my life and wonder if that means I close the door on the friendships I have made? Do people come into our lives only to teach us and move on? Has my need for friends lessened? Perhaps I’ve just become more interested and involved with the “real” world. But I feel an obligation here.
I feel as if I am leaving a job where I’ve made lots of friends. Exchanging phone numbers and promising to stay in touch, except you know it doesn’t work that way. You stay in touch for a bit, sending emails, and passing on jokes, but it just doesn’t last. At least for me it hasn’t.
Maybe I’m saying good bye here, but I don’t think so. Maybe I’ve moved to a place where I don’t need to blog anymore. But there are so many stories out there that I want to know the ending of. And then there’s the guilt. I need to know what’s happening in my friends’ lives. I hope they need me as well. I may not be as active on WP as before, but I’m still here. I want to keep in touch with the many fine people here.