Tomorrow morning we are planning to go visit Mom at the assisted living home. Husband’s niece and her daughter will also be there. I don’t know any other way to say it, but I don’t like Niece. I’m probably being ridiculous and silly, but 15 years ago she did and said some things that really bothered me. Insulting and angering things. It’s not like I can’t forgive and move on; I hold no grudge. But these things told me something of her character, which I found unappealing. So, in s nutshell, I don’t want to visit Mom, because I don’t want to spend time with Niece. We don’t see her often, but the last time we did, I didn’t exactly have the best time.
Am I being silly? Am I holding a grudge, but calling it a character flaw? I’ve tried a Buddhist approach, and tried to let it go. You know, who am I to say the way she behaved was wrong of her. She obviously did and said things she felt were necessary or true at the time. Maybe I’m just looking for an excuse for just not liking her.
I’m thinking of invoking a migraine in order to get out of going tomorrow. I’ve had a migraine all day, so it is possible I will still have it in the morning, but if I don’t I may still say I do. How childish am I?